I see the gods avert their gaze from me
Oct. 30th, 2025 09:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
josilverdragonI have NOT kept up with keeping up this journal like I want to. Some of it has been time management, as in dawdling on my phone doomscrolling through IG reels or FB reels (I gave up tiktok a few months ago), or playing a mobile game called "All In Hole". This also includes dawdling at work, as in not leaving when my eight hours are up and hanging around until 6PM. It's just a me problem, really lol
In addition to learning my old boss is changing departments, other issues popped up this week at work and it was only after listening to others in leadership talk about what happened at the meeting at 5 AM (WHICH I WOKE UP FOR T_T) that I started to feel better. Honestly, whatever will be will be. And triple digits down in the stock market for the year is NOT GOOD but it'll be fine.
The new dog is settling in and the parents finally felt good enough about her to let her sleep with them in the bedroom and it seems to have worked out well. Midget just needed routine and people to pay attention to her and she seems to be learning the boundaries. I think she really just needed attention and people to care about her and set boundaries. We'll see how it goes from here. She is sweet, if mischievous.
Today also provided a revelation for me and while I painted myself in a corner with the credit card debt I have, I just need to hunker down, make plans and find a way forward. Ultimately I realized that the reason I sought so much distraction during the work hours is because I'm bored. Even if I have work, I'm bored with it. It's not challenging my brain, or scratching my brain, or however you want to say it. So I need to make some changes. But it will have to be in steps to make sure that I have my bills taken care of, my cats, my finances over all. Now I just need to figure out what I want to try.
I had the bright idea to change some of my journal icons to Sleep Token profile pictures soooo that may happen when I get a moment lol
Well, it's past time to get my nightly chores done so I'm off, but enjoy.
Trying to Read: John Scalzi - Redshirts
Current Fanfic: Love and Other Historical Accidents (Draco/Hermione)
In the Background: PROP HUNT TO CALM THE BRAIN - oldtime101
Last song listened to:
In addition to learning my old boss is changing departments, other issues popped up this week at work and it was only after listening to others in leadership talk about what happened at the meeting at 5 AM (WHICH I WOKE UP FOR T_T) that I started to feel better. Honestly, whatever will be will be. And triple digits down in the stock market for the year is NOT GOOD but it'll be fine.
The new dog is settling in and the parents finally felt good enough about her to let her sleep with them in the bedroom and it seems to have worked out well. Midget just needed routine and people to pay attention to her and she seems to be learning the boundaries. I think she really just needed attention and people to care about her and set boundaries. We'll see how it goes from here. She is sweet, if mischievous.
Today also provided a revelation for me and while I painted myself in a corner with the credit card debt I have, I just need to hunker down, make plans and find a way forward. Ultimately I realized that the reason I sought so much distraction during the work hours is because I'm bored. Even if I have work, I'm bored with it. It's not challenging my brain, or scratching my brain, or however you want to say it. So I need to make some changes. But it will have to be in steps to make sure that I have my bills taken care of, my cats, my finances over all. Now I just need to figure out what I want to try.
I had the bright idea to change some of my journal icons to Sleep Token profile pictures soooo that may happen when I get a moment lol
Well, it's past time to get my nightly chores done so I'm off, but enjoy.
Trying to Read: John Scalzi - Redshirts
Current Fanfic: Love and Other Historical Accidents (Draco/Hermione)
In the Background: PROP HUNT TO CALM THE BRAIN - oldtime101
Last song listened to:
