you take the dark and carve me out a home

Current Stats:
Books read: 1
Total pages read: 244
Fanfics read: 1
Total words read: 4,478 

Fic By Fandom:

• 1 Among Us
• x Hannibal

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Trying to make posting here more of a daily habit so it's been written into my schedule that I want to have and that I'm trying to have. So, hi, once again.

Set up all my monthly posts so if you're curious, here is my Read in March 2026 post and my To Do List - March 2026. I'll try to remember to post them at the end of what posts I make for easy finding (as if it's something anyone really wants to see hahaha - sigh). I added a few private posts, such as the daily schedule I'm trying to keep as well as fully fleshed out my 2026 goals post. I'll reveal the schedule at the end of March if it works, or if it changes. And the goals one will be for the end of the year, when I do a recap. Some things I want to keep to myself for the time being. 

Speaking of my self-proposed schedule, if I don't post on DW on any given day, it's because time ran out. Yesterday I had wanted to post but I was trying to update my calibre fanfiction archive with email updates while the site was up, as well as get some reading done, so I ran out of time. Plus, I was about an hour and a half behind all day with my personal schedule, so I had to move some things around and DW was a casualty.

In reading, which has made a poor showing for me this year, I've been working through Kacie Rose's "You Deserve Good Gelato". She's a travel influencer who kind of fell into it because she met her fiance while on a solo trip to Italy and now lives in Italy with him. I initially had a video of hers come across Tiktok when I first was on it and I've enjoyed her recounting her cross-cultural hilarities and missteps. She has a lovely written voice and she comes through as genuine and funny and relatable. I've enjoyed it and have about 25% left, I think.

I was going to write about my massive music playlist, including artists I love and want to listen to but that will have to wait along with the story of the new exercise/yoga ball I got. Not much today as I was trying again to add more fanfiction to my archive and got delayed getting to my DW update time slot. OH and I should also tell you that despite being an atheist, I've joined a pretty rad bible studies under Monte Mader. It's fascinating. And I'll expound on that later.

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Trying to Read: You Deserve Good Gelato by Kacie Rose [Goodreads][Storygraph]

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Current Fanfic: N/A
In the Background: N/A
Last song listened to: burn down my house ~ Architects
 

My reading is crap this month. I did finish one book, Heated Rivalry by Rachel Reid, because I loved the series from Crave. But I've flitted between a handful of other books and am currently reading The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*ck by Mark Manson. Next up will be trying to finish Exquisite Corpse by Poppy Z Brite and then jumping to The Long Game by Rachel Reid. Last month I made this huge list of what books I'm going to read next, and that list has been blown out of the water now haha.

What else what else. . . Lots of things going on in the world but I'm not going to go into it tonight. Except to say Abolish Ice. Impeach everyone in leadership. And Democrats, what the fuck are you doing?!

Trying to find equilibrium in the midst of everything and failing. Self-sabotage, what's new lol.

Subject is lyrics from Bird York's "In the Deep"



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Added a handful of new ST icons. Tried to compress and resize a gif to an icon but alas, I stuck with photos only for today.

My free time has been just trying to keep the archive posts going, amidst a lot of doom scrolling on my phone. Anyway, I'm trying to get to a place where I can take a week off of not having to keep updating on a daily basis but I'm failing. I know I need a vacation but I don't necessarily want one lol. I think I'll be able to coast in January and through out most of the year because with the exception of part of July and most of August. I was on hiatus during that period so I'll just have to catch up then.

The rest of my life has just been going to work and living for the weekend. For the first time, or so it feels, I feel like this dark winter is starting to affect me. Of course, that's not to mention the other goings on in the US that is dragging me down.

I had to go into work a couple hours earlier than usual due to some reviews for April updates and Wednesday, my commute wasn't too bad, despite being around the usual 4:30pm and 5pm evening commute. So I had a thought that maybe I might change my schedule. I don't really have a set schedule but I usually am in between 9 and 9:30 AM. However, Thursday I ended up in a traffic jam that took me an hour and a half to get home, as opposed to the usual 30 minutes. Yeah, Friday, I was back in the office at my previously usual time because screw that. Haha.

Ultimately feeling a little bit like I'm drowning. Like my head is still above water but just barely. 

Halfway through December and I have yet to completely my end of November lists, recaps, and did not even set anything for December. Not that it really matters because I haven't really finished anything except for a book and yeah. I've been vacillating between what ebook device to use, and setting up my to read list and I finally settled but now I've changed my mind. Just another day in paradise.

Speaking of "Paradise", the series on Hulu, season 2 should be soon and The Pitt, which is an awesome show, starts season 2 on January 8, so I have those to look forward to. The next season of Murderbot probably won't be until at least the fall. Maybe early 2026. Nothing else is really holding my attention at the moment other than my YouTube watch later queue.

Trying to Read: The Book of Jhereg by Steven Brust (Finally lol; originally added to my to read list 12/1/2007)
Current Fanfic: Lessons in Humanity by exclamation (Sterek) (This is on pause still)
In the Background: My fav olive oil farm in Tuscany
Last song listened to: Sleep Token - Dark Signs

Current Stats:
Books read: N/A
Total pages read: N/A
Fanfics read: 18
Total words read: 419,751

Fic By Fandom:

• 11 Hannibal
• 4 Star Trek
• 1 HP
• 1 Teen Wolf
• 1 Marvel

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A comprehensive list of the things I have read in the month of August. Updated 9/1/2025 4:56 PM (Bold are my favorites)

Current Stats:
Books read: 1
Fanfics read: 90
Total words read: 1,581,098

Fic by Fandom:

• 32 Teen Wolf
• 16 Star Trek
• 13 SPN
• 7 Hannibal
• 4 Sherlock
• 3 Marvel
• 3 James Bond
• 3 HTTYD
• 2 Non-fandom
• 2 Disney
• 1 Riddick
• 1 Fruits Basket
• 1 Pokemon
• 1 Inuyasha
• 1 FFVII

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Been slogging through Prince Harry's "Spare" and it's not that it isn't good, or that it makes me sad I am reading it, it just is emotional, internal, and I cannot escape real life. The types of books and fanfiction that really allow me to read fast and fly through it are those that allow me to suspend belief, to forget about my life, and so on. His memoir is full of emotional trauma, internal turmoil, and a lot of truths he himself wanted to avoid. In other words, things myself I wish to avoid. LOL

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Also, a random journal refresh, with Knight Shiro by ohitsaunicorn as my default icon and Lauren Montgomery's last VLD artwork before the season that shall not be named (Season 8 because I'm not afraid lol) as the journal header.

Anyway, hope you all are doing okay. Live long and prosper.