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josilverdragonHere I am, setting up my little end of the blog blurb, and then I forget what I was going to post. Haha.
Started out my day having to clean my drink bottle because I found suspicious discoloring and yeah, it needed to have the lid cleaned because oops, I cleaned the main body by hand (I have stickers on it) but didn't pay attention to the rest of the apparatus. So yay. I also broke my self-ban on buying snacks from the little snack mini-market at work because I suddenly had a craving for chocolate mini-donuts and the protein pretzels so yeah.
Speaking of food, Sunday I made jasmine rice with peas, chickpeas, and sweet corn and then I've added in some rotisserie chicken, with some baby spinach and some light Hellman's mayo for some lubrication and it's been so satisfying for lunch. I still need to remind myself that I don't need all the snacks I bring with me but that's a battle. I still have this issue with actually feeling hungry and my instincts are to ensure that I at least have something. But that started when I was in a taiko group and wanted to make sure I had enough sustenance for practice but I don't need it anymore. The brain is both amazing but also a pain in the ass.
In getting in more movement, I started doing the warm ups I learned from taiko and karatedo years ago. It's been a while and I've been fighting with breaking from all things taiko that I refused to do the warm ups for a while but honestly, I just need to do it. So I did. I've done them every morning except for Wednesday last week and Sunday. It's been beneficial, I will say, and it's a start. Eventually, I'd like to get back in the gym. Which may be in one week, or in two, but I'm going to be doing the gym as a means to get movement and not necessarily to "get fit". I think where I've failed in recent years is not sticking with the same workout, so I get anxious when I go in to the gym and can't just do my work out but I have to look it up. I just need to set a simple plan and just keep at it for a while.
I was talking with my mom this evening about how the internet is no longer fun. I mean, for me, in some ways fun is simply cataloguing and saving social media posts to reshare later on my archive. However, what I mean is there is always something that a website is planning to change to make things more monetizable. Capitalism at its finest is finding ways to make money off of likes and reblogs on tumblr, only to have the userbase revolt. Everything is turning into microtransactions. Physical books are being turned into a luxury item with the advent of ebooks and the sunsetting of the mass market paperbacks. Facebook posts have ads attached to all of them. Ads are posted every 3 posts or retweets on the site I will never stop calling Twitter. Same with FB, there's an ad every 3 to 5 posts. We as a society used to rail against the pop-up ad on websites but then they just built them into the infrastructure of their pages, so now, the only thing entertainment-wise that does not have pictures is physical books. Ads are in movie-theaters, in radio, on Youtube, on Spotify, in your freaking ebooks. We are inundated with ads wherever we go and I miss the actual freaking knowledge sharing that used to be the internet. Where people were a community rather than a commodity, or a means to make money. It's annoying. All of it.
The only remaining good things on the internet is this blogsite, archiveofourown.org, and insanejournal.
Anyway, got the ebook for Everything Is Tuberculosis by John Green from the Libby app so I'm reading that instead of American Fascists. It's been so strange carrying around a physical book to read (American Fascists) and I considered buying the ebook but I'm like. . . why. Just read the book you have. Also, I don't want to spend money on the book again when I already have it. It's just a shame that it's not in my library's options for ebooks (which is probably on purpose considering the subject matter haha). I've been reading mostly ebooks the last few years because it's convenient and if I want to save money, I should probably only buy something once or on sale.
I've been in a podcast mood the last couple of days and it's been Dateline currently. I haven't listened to music at least since Sunday. It will come back, it always does.
Started out my day having to clean my drink bottle because I found suspicious discoloring and yeah, it needed to have the lid cleaned because oops, I cleaned the main body by hand (I have stickers on it) but didn't pay attention to the rest of the apparatus. So yay. I also broke my self-ban on buying snacks from the little snack mini-market at work because I suddenly had a craving for chocolate mini-donuts and the protein pretzels so yeah.
Speaking of food, Sunday I made jasmine rice with peas, chickpeas, and sweet corn and then I've added in some rotisserie chicken, with some baby spinach and some light Hellman's mayo for some lubrication and it's been so satisfying for lunch. I still need to remind myself that I don't need all the snacks I bring with me but that's a battle. I still have this issue with actually feeling hungry and my instincts are to ensure that I at least have something. But that started when I was in a taiko group and wanted to make sure I had enough sustenance for practice but I don't need it anymore. The brain is both amazing but also a pain in the ass.
In getting in more movement, I started doing the warm ups I learned from taiko and karatedo years ago. It's been a while and I've been fighting with breaking from all things taiko that I refused to do the warm ups for a while but honestly, I just need to do it. So I did. I've done them every morning except for Wednesday last week and Sunday. It's been beneficial, I will say, and it's a start. Eventually, I'd like to get back in the gym. Which may be in one week, or in two, but I'm going to be doing the gym as a means to get movement and not necessarily to "get fit". I think where I've failed in recent years is not sticking with the same workout, so I get anxious when I go in to the gym and can't just do my work out but I have to look it up. I just need to set a simple plan and just keep at it for a while.
I was talking with my mom this evening about how the internet is no longer fun. I mean, for me, in some ways fun is simply cataloguing and saving social media posts to reshare later on my archive. However, what I mean is there is always something that a website is planning to change to make things more monetizable. Capitalism at its finest is finding ways to make money off of likes and reblogs on tumblr, only to have the userbase revolt. Everything is turning into microtransactions. Physical books are being turned into a luxury item with the advent of ebooks and the sunsetting of the mass market paperbacks. Facebook posts have ads attached to all of them. Ads are posted every 3 posts or retweets on the site I will never stop calling Twitter. Same with FB, there's an ad every 3 to 5 posts. We as a society used to rail against the pop-up ad on websites but then they just built them into the infrastructure of their pages, so now, the only thing entertainment-wise that does not have pictures is physical books. Ads are in movie-theaters, in radio, on Youtube, on Spotify, in your freaking ebooks. We are inundated with ads wherever we go and I miss the actual freaking knowledge sharing that used to be the internet. Where people were a community rather than a commodity, or a means to make money. It's annoying. All of it.
The only remaining good things on the internet is this blogsite, archiveofourown.org, and insanejournal.
Anyway, got the ebook for Everything Is Tuberculosis by John Green from the Libby app so I'm reading that instead of American Fascists. It's been so strange carrying around a physical book to read (American Fascists) and I considered buying the ebook but I'm like. . . why. Just read the book you have. Also, I don't want to spend money on the book again when I already have it. It's just a shame that it's not in my library's options for ebooks (which is probably on purpose considering the subject matter haha). I've been reading mostly ebooks the last few years because it's convenient and if I want to save money, I should probably only buy something once or on sale.
I've been in a podcast mood the last couple of days and it's been Dateline currently. I haven't listened to music at least since Sunday. It will come back, it always does.
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Reading: Everything Is Tuberculosis by John Green [Goodreads][Storygraph]
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