TW Pet Death discussion

[josilverdragon]

Loki isn't at rest yet but I have been emotional all day sinceI called for her end of life appointment tomorrow. She's gone downhill so fast and it just makes me so sad. She keeps trying. She eats a little, drinks water, uses the litter box, but she doesn't eat enough and has no energy. She was still climbing the cat tree June 9th and here we are not even a week later and the cancer in her lung has gotten so bad that she can't jump even onto a chair. Or a foot rest. She can get down but only if she has a way down. I'm just heartbroken. All she wanted was pets and food and love and I gave her what I could with the juggarnaut that is my other cat, Pele.

Loki is 15, her blood work shows all other functions fine except for white blood cells. Combined with the mass in one lobe of her lung, that can spell only one thing according to Occam's Razor (thanks House M.D.). She would have lasted a couple more years if not for the presumed cancerous take over of her lung. Like, I'm a little mad. Sad, mad, heartbroken.

We'll be okay. I just was not prepared to lose Loki so quickly. She was fine in January. A couple months ago she was yelling at me over food in her dish, then the quickest decline I've experienced in an otherwise healthy cat.

I'll be fine. I'm just sad. Trying to find reason. I still have one other cat and she'll be okay too. She wasn't friends with Loki, more likely tolerated her because they both loved me.

UGH.
 

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[cye_of_the_torrent]

I'm so sorry.